Have you ever had one of those days, weeks, months, maybe even years where you feel like you're JUST barely making it? Well, that's what this month has been for us. I'll let Jas tell you how he feels in another post if he so desires, but let me put it out there how I've felt.
October has been full. Busy, good, tough, and full. This post may sound like all I'm doing is complaining, and maybe that's just what it is, but it's high time to get it off my chest. So here goes.
Adjusting to life with a baby is no joke. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be more thankful for the lil thing. She's a blessing, undoubtedly. But there's no how-to manual for babies. It's a HUGE learning curve. And sleepless nights just make for tiredness during the day, too...whew.
Post-birth healing is no piece of cake either. Episiotomies, nursing, then developing an abscess. Wow, overwhelming. Painful. Trying to heal. And with all that comes the in general feeling of not being able to get it all done (in ministry, with family, around the house and so on). On a side note, how do families of multiples do it!?! Maybe we'll know one day...
Speaking of learning curves and learning, I feel like my Slovak skills have plummeted. I've still been plowing at it in between feedings and diaper changes, but I haven't been able to speak like I want to and just feel like my vocab and grammar have begun to slide. Ugh. One day I will get this language (genuine determination right there, folks).
All that adds up to cranky husband and wife. My husband has a fine sense of humor (and it's one of the things I love most about him), but he also has a particular way of applying humor when he's stressed that just plain irritates me. Yep, I said it. And trust me, it's not just him. That's not what I'm saying. I come back at him with snide remarks and ugliness too. Makes for unpleasant conversations. But this too shall pass and we are learning more and more how to work through stress together (slowly but surely).
So how's that for bearing it all today? Just putting it all out there. We're real and really sinful over here in Slovakia...bet ya couldn't have guessed that, huh? ;) However, I did receive an encouraging note from a friend today reminding me of this verse:
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
James 1:2-4 ESV
God knows our trials. And my trials compared to many other's trials are nothing. I have SO very much to be thankful for. SO much. Now just to remember this in times of trial.
And speaking of things to be thankful for...we were able to spend some time with family (altogether close to a whole month, actually) who came all the way over here to see us.
Because no blog post is complete without pictures...
If you read through all that...consider yourself a champ! Thanks for letting me get it all out on this here little blog :)